heyyys peoples! reminder that i have a new number and shit ahha =P and like ask me if you need it and RARRAra yeh =)) 

i dont know i went to bed at like 2 am ><  i layed there for about 3-4 hours =((( couldnt sleep... i think here is where the energy pill kicked in LOL >< damnit .. i needed sleep cos i had to wake up at 8-9am  for a fkn dentist appointment..whcih by the way my mother woke me up an hour early >< and i had to wait at the dentist thing for 30 minutes =( cos i was fkn early >< ARraRAr i couldve slept a lil longer damnit>< *sighs* soo basically its been one year and 3 months with my train tracks >< hope they will be off soon =)) i hate them >=F  and now they hurt alot =((( damnn .... soo after that my mother took me to my grandmothers house took her freakin 30mins to go >< dumah! then then i msgd my godbro which lived 2 houses away but that ass didnt reply >< and i didtn wanna call cos it will prob kill my credit LOl IM STINGY NOW PEOPLE =DDD very ehhe a full fkn tight ass =) get use to it until i find a job that actually pays =)))) ahha soo yeh after we drove to burwood cos i wanted to shop ...><"  fukcOs the shit i wanted didnt have my size >< and my mother says its the same as all my other skirts =( lies! they are different!!!!!! ><" but yeh im gonna make her give me iosh soo i can buy 2 skirts at para soon =)) its on sale people...ehhe general pants co. =D yes yes *hoOray ? * =P oOo or mayb ill look for them at the ct on thurs >< *shrugs* we will see ><" hmm wonder when amanda and kat is taking me to para =D  ???? haha wells RARra then we went to "yumcha" and yeh food was mediOKa ><:" hmmm then drove me home and i played with my beads =))) FUNNNNNN! ><"  kakKA heheh and me and my sister made a deal to clean our rooms and help each other move our room around LOL >< did not happen ><"' all we did is chuck all that supposely cute shit in the bin.. or in a bag to give to my lil cousin lOL >< fuk i was gay ! =P and i wasted a shitload on those shit ahha more dosh than my beads >< LOl wells my beads will pay off soon =)) *yay* HOPE HOPE! =D hmmms ... well yes my room is still messy ... but i stuck more shit on the walls ahhah and and theres not much shit >< i think LOL..i dotn know.. tahts my point of view =P i wanna move my room around ehhehe but i dotn knwo whats going on.. cos atm my sister has gone to the gym and im taking a break until she gets home to make me dinner =)) *whOots* her budds from norway are coming soon =) and she might take me raving cos her friends are like into taht shit =)) wbHAHAHhaha *yayness* well HOPE HOPE! ahhaha might be goin to tranziii with my sisters ID =)) cant wait for chinese new year! hahah more dosh for everything ^^ .. eheh i was talking to my mother about it today.. trying to convince her to give me more.=) because im jobless and yes i need the doshys=-D hhahah wells RRARraRARrarra .....blehk ><"

well basically today i woke up at like 2...had a shower .... done something (totally forgotten) and then went to amandas place at like 4...amanda told me to bring my box of beads>< ahha shes gotten addicted as i am =) and susan! hahHAah and yes she was struggling harD! the night before she started to make peter one ...><" that took her the whole night and she did not finish >< soo today she attempted to finish took her fkn AGESSSSS! >< and yes haHAHh she doesnt liek it...>< neither did i HAHahha ><" but oh wells ahhaha shhhhhhhhhhhhhh*  hmm then i chatted on the net with people LOl >< amanda and her drugs man! >< frark haaha " i see weed" .. " i smell weed" ... " i chew weed" ... "i sniff weed" ... " sniff speed" ... "pillar" ...ARraRAr wtF! lay off woman! ><" aiish dude! ahHAHha fag =P wells ahhaha her and her lil sisters were just playing with my beads hehe funny ass stuff had happened ahhah fkn funny! LOL  *shrugs* then RArRArRArA  kat came =) and RARRARra .. we drank a little johnny walker and yes hahah took energy pills we got the day b4 hahAHha >< didnt work at first.. reason why i think it didnt work is because we drank and RARar yeh ehhe but we had funn.... when we were walking towards katrinas place we layed in the middle of the road =) it was sooo comfy x))) soo very hehe and yes then RArARrRArRArrARrARra ... serously i cannot be bothered explaing =) soo ehhe RARrar then when i got home i played pool with my brothers friend and *yay* i won BOTH TIMES! ^^ and and yes we( me,sis,bro,friend) watched "simple life 2" on our new big screen ahha omg stupid fan behind the tv almost killed US >< it was smoking and stunk up the whole house >< argha! hmm ...read the nxt blog.. it continues my day =) dawn! whatever hehe

9.30AM: FKN HAD TO WAKEUP!!! ><"

10.30am  suppose to meet clifford at lidcombe station ...  made mummy drive me to lidcombe station HAhah

10.50am: finally met up with clifford ><" he was waiting *sighs* ..  guess wasnt that bad cos he said he was use to it =P

11.something  : trained it to granville ... bused it to para... met up with jennifer... ate >< sooo grouse, my usually large chips and gravy from kfc, FULLY FERAL! ><"  gravy was like water and chips just EwwWww ..argh!

12.something  : movie- "Alfie" i dont remeber what happened but it was alright i think LOl i dotn knwo watch it if you wanna know if its good or not! ><: loL ...cinema was fkn stinky and SMALL!

2-3 pm : movie finished .. walked around para General Pants co. FUCK SO CHEAP =DD happy peOple! bought a skirt and had absolutely no money whats so ever ><" only enough for a train ticket to burwood ><"

4pm : went to burwood, other friends left... met up with tony, kevin, james & their friends hmmMMm.. yes sat there waiting for katrina to come pick me up .. to train me to marrickville =D she didnt wanna leave me alone on the train LOVE YOU KAT! <3 and plus i didnt have money to train it and i didnt have a way to go home.. soo i justt called them.. and yeh ARARraRARrArArra

" your as cold as ICE ...
                     your willing to sacrifice .. Our lOve... "


basically today was full of shit! ><"

slept at 5am ..doing shit with beads =.="

woke up at 1pm..called amanda and told her to work for mee this arvo ..cos seriously i could not be fukt and i was terribly not in the mood ><"

blAh blAh blehk ><" ....

watched "the OC" season twO eps 9 ..lol it was Okayss ><"

then my grandfather put up my notice board =))) its finally off the floor and on the wall =) BWHahhaaha room feels bigger now ahhah cos my floor shit is too one side now =D akKAk yup yups.. hmmm ....

then went to sleep for a few hours lol >< felt like my head was filled with thoughts, salty water, and yeh MY EYES ARE SOO SMAL NOW ITS A PISS ASSS! =((( feels like my face is swallon >< and i have a headache =/ ..

woke up.. and ate foood =))) grandmas home cookin ^^ ... then then i just walked around ..actually i dont know what i was doing but i dotn think i walked around much ><" psssch mayb i just lyed in bed once again =)) lOl comfy shits! akkAKkakka

then jjust listening to music on my labtop whilst chatting on my sisters lOl

gOddamMit i have to be at lidcombe station @ fkn 10.30AM tomros..thats totally bOgus! ><" should be in bed sooon >< not really up for it tho >< *cries*  anyways im must be off..laters =))

haha wells today i went to work.... didnt wanna...when i was there i wanted to call amanda and make her come buts i need the dosh i guess ><" soo yeh soo many people quitted apparently .. which sucks hard cos i want too! =) hope nxt wk will be my last! *yay* anyways hahah funny ppl work at this shop nows =) the bitch that i use to call bitch is a lady taht i now call " lostfunnydude" lol =) shess cool now ahah and this funny dude is funny cos hes sooo lost HAHha >< wells yeh taht was work and tehn afterr my mother drove me to paramatta =) lol soo i could purchase my beads with her money =)) *claps* but mateys i feeel soo bad spending soo much on beads lol ><" anyone wanna help ??? xDDDD amanda owes me a bag =) wanna owe me twO =)) akKAkka and yesS voluteers are well needed at this point!!!ahhah i stood there asking that lady questions for a while!! and freakyshit she was there yes2days too.. ahah i wonder if she noticed it was the same me.. cos i said i would be back yes2days.. and i said it again today HAhahah ><" blehk farrks! =(((  i wish there could a somebody that can buy bags and i buy bags and we go halvies soo i dotn have to spend much and like we have everything HAHAh ><: tssk tssk ahhaha oh wells >< susan would be fun but she lives soo farrrrrr! ><: not fair susan! lOl anywyas yes *sighs* kakakak peopl think im crazy with beads! why ? lol i liek making shit =) its caled funnn!!!! xD yup yups wells hahah yehe yeh shhhhhhhhhhh* =) toOdles~

biohazards!! HAHAHhAHAhHA =) the shit!

this morning well lets say i was.... very dull ><" thought the day will start with me being a bitch >< which it did ><" sorry amanda *mwah* but then funny enough peter called me and said that he was stuck at strathfield at fkn 10am HAhaha and said huy couldn't come =P soo made me and amanda meet him ups.. wells when amanda called me at 9 something i couldnt go back to sleep... i just layed there ..soo i was up to just go out..lucky him lol.. but amanda came like half hour late soo peter still had to wait.. and like yeh ahhah oh wells huy ended up going =)) soo s'all good =D ... i called jessica SO FUNNY heeh her buss came late and she missed her train lol and she lives in whoOp whoOp and she was suppose meet us at 11.30pm hahah then at strathfield plaza i saw iris =)) one of which i havnt seen since school ended lol she seemed happy =) which im glad for .. anyways i ate some chicken thing lol it was kind of nice in a way =) hmm.. then we had to train it to redfern lol and freakily jessica was on the train we were about to approach ..lol when i saw the door opened i was like "jessica...fuck stay on" how strange is it to be on the same train and same carriage LOl =) cools haha wells on a way to redfern ... i realised i had a big head =) lol stupid hat! and it cost me 70 bux mates lol damn.. but its still loved keke then on our way back to para from redfern we were soo hot >< damn temperature!! its fagme! haHa and so we met up with jessicas friends all the names i remeber is melinda, chris, anne, mylinh (cos i know her cousin lol), and wow dont think they introed me properly ahha nice meeting you guys ^^ ... hmmm met at the food court downstairs of para westfield .. lol we ate and the above boost juice was playing 'tricky tricky' soo we bobbed our heads to it like fags! lol oh wells fun!!! ahaha OMG! OMG! OMFG! i found fkn nicee beads at some store >< fuck expensive shit and FUK I WANT THEM!! lol they had many LETTERS! tOnay LETTERS!! pfft lol nicer beads too >< i was about to purchase a few bags ^^ but fk i didnt really wanna use amandas money lol >< even though i shouldve lol i want them and i will be back for them this weekend! =Dforsurelys! kakaka omg i cant wait =)))) ahhhhh awesome! wish i bought a least one bag soo i can make them here now at amandas place whilst other people are like all haHAhah >< blehk oh wells =) hmmm soo then we walked to city beach and shit.. ahha then all the way to lincraft and no more fkn blk and wht letters ><" oh wells haha there many at that other store =) .... soo then i think we went to the upstairs food court and =) jumped ... soo gay peter and huy was acting >< they lied to me of what they were feeling blehka shhh* *smacks* ahhlahlah .. oh wells hehe i had fun =) major fun hehe trippy ><" but fag cos they had no music and we couldnt find where K was >< and when we did it was closed! hahah people went all over the place so we had to wait for all of them to get back and shits haha we were at starbucks =D funnnN!!! and i also had fun walking around keke.. but i wanted to go to K but they wanted to go to amandas place soo made them go k at stratty lol fkn only 20bux for the room and shit ehhe singing was funn =) i had not sang like that since well agess! =] awesome heheh but i wanted to dance >< *sighs* lol ill be doing that shit at wildfire for sure b4 school starts!! =D *boOm boOm boOm*  lets all dance our way into school lol >< sounding fag now aye hehe *whoot oh wells hahHAha hmm then then we bused it tooo amandas place and yeh heheh jess left like an hr ago and soo did the other people but they left during k ... lOl i feel sorry for the K people lol we screwd that room hard >< blehk sooooo sorry >< hahaa soo messy >< dw the mess was easy to clean i presume lol >< wasnt truely our fault cos we really didnt want to miss our bus ahha even though we did but then the otehr buss came soo ALL GOOD!!! =D just yeh lol i dont wanna  see those guys for awhile lol not like i would anyways ahhah K at stratty not really my thing lOl  anywyas right now i am at amandas place .. soo weird amandas mum is pissy wouldnt let us put the music on moderate  >< psssch ahah oh wells im near the speakers keke =DD happy!!  well i just blogged a blogged b4 this and i hope that this year would be a better one than last year! last year was a fkn joke! this year i hope to achieve more and more ... liek everyone else but i actually mean it ehhe =Pblehk  i wanna start studying so when im in year 12 it wont have to be as hard and will do the best for my life! =)

my advice to everyone .. is that if your in pain and sufferage .. stand strong and shit, do the best, think the best dont let anyone or thing get in the way of what you are destined to discover!! =) just smile and say im smiling because im happy!!! lOl

i might be sounding a bit fag` kaka i know but seriously im out for the best =) and it feels gooooood!!! 

ahha its been nice blogging today =))) kakKAk *yay*

wells im for a walk now! =) all you peeps take cares and fkn live it!!! =D
smile for yvonne and everyone else =)DDDD AHhaHAHhaheheh

if anyones asks.. im fine =)

between one to two am last night ... im glad to say that maybe i have done the rightest thing yet. Something that i shouldve done a long time a go ><" i was scared at first and full of confusion..pissass and all that u can ever imagine. but once it was over it made me tear up but weirdly like 2 minutes later i felt soo happy ..  im finially at a point where theres no turning back >< letting go was hard but now i know time will heal everything because i finially got closure on something that went for over a yr and a bit. im sorry for the people that have to encounter my actions, then and now.  i know im constantly bitchy but thats just when im in a bad mood.. hopefully i can stand stong and manage to control myself and stay the true person i am! =) for the nxt few days it will be hard hitting.. lol but dont worry i will get over it =) and im for sure this time ... theres nothing that can bring me down except the fact i cant go raving no more =( BUT besides that im finee ^^ ...  there might be a part of me missing, however i know theres a special someone waiting for me =) you know who you are! and i promise next time it will be finial and just great! just right now i need some time for myself to figure out where my life is going and shit. and i know you do to .. sooo hope it doesnt take too long aye =)) ...

             im proud to say that im free and happy, even though at times i mighnt seem like it.. i am!

well basically today i got up at fkn 9-10 or something ... SOO EARLY!!! anywyas done the usual shit ..made my sis drive me to the station... then i trained it to redfern to meet up with tony ><" "apparently" i was late  HAHAHA as always bleh =P and tony waited a while HAHAHHA thens when i got there we trained it to museumm and met up with "zaebos" hahah yeh gave him back his bonkers, he gave me his beads =D *thumbs up thanks mate* .. and i bought him a vinyl 40bux!! =D happy birthday man! HAHHAHAAHa go nuts!! =) and then after me and tony trained it tooo chatswood! .. no reasons we were there except to check out the avaliability of letters of beads which was a sad ZERO!! ><" fuckos and tehn we walekd all around looking for astro boy stuff.. and tonys an idiot!! =D yes he is... rARrararrarRAra  well i got peda somethign yeh ahha happy birthday mate! =D hmmm then we trained it to the ct ... wait wait i got peda present in the ct! yes thats right! yesh ahhaha andd yeh at tthe ct we walked all around looking for stuf... Oh yeh tony was an idiot here! not at chatswood lol..yeh yeh then then ummmm yeh we walekd alot! CRACK UP! some dude got jumpd by sercurity at market ct , he was sooo young toO!! and like yeh he screamed and shit and he bit one guard on the arm! HAHHA LOL well yeh ehhe thats where we saw jok! lol omg! im remebering soo much! =D proud are we? wells  OMG! I FOUND A FLASHINMG DUMMIE! *whOot* ahahah sooo cools but but yeh i wante it at utopia and like yeh fkn find it now.. JESICA IT WAS RIGHT WHERE WE WERE STANDING B4 UTOPIA! >< aiish* pretty gay ahHAh oh wals hmmm then went to central station.. trained it tooo newtown! walked around looking for " psydeways" at first when "zaebos" was telling me the directions i went the wrong way.. then i walked back.. thought we couldnt find it.. but then when i was like maybe we should go back .. I FOUND IT! *thumbs up* hahah shhshh* yeh i got this thign! pretty weird =DDD i like their candy! lol >< damn.. then we were looking for a presnt for peda that tony must give him...but we could not cos many shops were being clsed and shitsO.. soo yeh i found this art store and got some LETTERS! =D made me happy... haha and tony bought them for me THANKS =))! then we walked arounf .. there was one weirdo freaking me out.. some old weird freaky yellow shirt wearing guy! he started looking at me.. i got scared i stopped.. he stoped... we went .. he went.. we stopped he stopped... we walked the other way.. then stopped... tehn waited for him to go! DUDE! he was a SCARY MOFO!! ><" fukcOs  ..  RArararrara tony took me back to strattie soo no weird cunt can approach me well yeh thanks for  that! lol tonys mooshooo! =D cos of his fangs ?? HAHAHAHAHHA you knwo from mulan! HAHAHA MOOSHOO! hmph* wells bout it.. tahts the day...

okays! hmmm...

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well usually i would have soo much to say, at this point i have nothing ><"